duminică, 24 mai 2020

To be who ?


What I will share with you is what happened after I said to myself: I got to discover who I really am!
And I’m going to do whatever it takes to be in control of my life! To be who I want!



To be who I want !
To be who … I !
To be who ?
To be !




              I don’t know if there are lessons which we decide to learn, or we feed ourselves with the excuse that we are in control of what’s happening around us, just to comfort the inner I, meanwhile life is following its own path.

  Now … after having … let’s call it control, I admit I have never had it. Was just the illusion of it. There were decisions, were influences, were life experiences which pushed me to choose a way or another, which cursed me with the thirst of knowledge.

   I recognise this ‘’Blouse Blanche’’ offers me no more than satisfaction behind the smiles of the patients I treat. Offers me the immunity facing the quotidian sorrow. And happiness is the ghost I was always looking for, but the route of the great discovery is way too far to be accomplished.

   So let the wind of the west to bring the bright future along with the blossom of the unknown fear.